And the Diagnosis Is…

OK – sorry for that title. It’s a little cryptic. I’m not dying.

I just figured that maybe I could share with the blogosphere what’s been going on with my health, since I have published a few posts in the recent past about my crazy head space. Well – now I know what it was all about, whereas before I was a little mystified. Or at least, I have a better idea of the whole picture.

It’s Graves disease. For those who are like, wha?… it’s an autoimmune disease that effects the thyroid gland, termed hyperthyroidism. So the symptoms? Agitation, fits of rage, mental confusion, foggy brain, weak and wasting muscles, rapid heart and tachycardia. It speeds your metabolism up so basically everything in your body runs too quickly. Feel like internally you are at a brisk jog 24 7. I got really skinny in the past little while. But no muscle either. Can’t work out because chest pains and my heart will race for hours afterwards (a very strange feeling). Also you get chronically malnourished because food doesn’t stay in your body long enough to get digested properly. Which for me has led to exhaustion, anxiety, agitation and a general intolerance for people and situations. Including my little son who has been asking me why I’m so angry all the time (insert my broken heart here).

I figure it was my pregnancy that shifted everything. And then it was exacerbated by chronic no sleep for the first three years of my baby’s life. He woke (me) up every hour on the hour, 24 hours a day for about 2 and a half years. It was debilitating, mentally, emotionally, socially. And now it turns out, physically as well.

Prior to that I had been vegetarian for many years and had autoimmune symptoms off and on before. Eating meat for a while always healed me – but I always end up back off of it because ethically I have such a big problem with it – I have trouble justifying the animal’s loss of life so that I can have a steak for dinner.

In the end it looks like I can’t be a vegetarian and be healthy. I think what we can and cannot eat has a lot to do with our ancestry – and hey I’m Scottish so there’s that. I’ve switched to a Paleo style healing diet – and I actually have to eat, not just meat but like, liver and hearts and stuff… I can barely keep it together. But I keep telling myself that it’s medicine and I shove the ethics to the back of my mind – for now.

Update: utilizing this diet, along with Chinese Medicine (herbs), I have managed to get this thing into remission. !! So very relieved that the path I chose, going with food medicine and natural healing methods, against my endocrinologist’s advice, panned out. Going against doctors and specialists when facing a serious illness, is actually quite unnerving. I’m happy to report that so far, so good.

ever more,

Sky on her Isle

What Do You Mean, Meet the Gods?

Sky on her Isle:

Glad to read of others asking the same question as me ;)

Originally posted on   Rogue Priest:

Two weeks ago I announced that I’m walking across two continents to meet the gods. That occasioned a mixed bag of reactions, including high fives, raised eyebrows and disapproving head-shaking. But one question has come up over and over again:

“What do you mean, you’re going to meet the gods?”


Somehow I wasn’t ready for this question. You’d think I would’ve seen it coming, since “I’m going to meet the gods” is about the last thing you expect to hear from a real living person, least of all a sane one. When I set that as the purpose of my journey, I should have realized it would raise as many questions as the hike itself.

But all I could do was to stammer and try to explain something I had never put in words before.

I started out giving wishy-washy answers. Someone asked me if I meant…

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Bear and Princess | John Bauer | Breakfast With the Gods

Trance with Song

At the school we are asked to practice going into trance every week on Freyja’s day – which is Friday. This is my first experience with crossing worlds via singing, instead of drumming or rattling. Amazing to be working on this, considering all the trouble I have had with singing this past year – well, more like working through the trouble. For the backstory go here.

When I went into trance today: I smudged the room, lit a candle and opened my mesa (medicine pouch). I brought in a statue of a cat I have, to represent Freyja. I rang some bells around my mesa and fed it with the smudge smoke. I selected a rock (rock/helper) from my mesa to hold, to ground me, closed my eyes and began to sing a song that I learned for fire ceremonies. Standing and signing I rocked myself back and forth. I noticed that it was difficult to visualize anything while I was singing. I felt like the effort of singing was distracting me – I was trying to  ‘see’ roots going down from my feet into the earth. It took a little while to get the feel for it all. I did notice myself deepen into a trancy kind of state – though it was much more aware feeling – more like stepping side-ways than sinking down.

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Freya Empress | Breakfast With the Gods

Further Along the Path

I’m ecstatic to announce my acceptance into a Masters program with Ocean Seminary College.

I’m taking an initiatory degree in Siedr – the 9 Pillars Tradition, along-side a Masters in World Shamanism. I’m super excited to get started. The school, although unorthodox (non-accredited and tuition is $50 per semester), after much research, looks stellar. The founder and Dean, Dr. Katherine MacDowell, is also the author of most of the courses. She also publishes a scholarly journal, Restoration Earth: An Interdisciplinary Journal for the Study of Nature & Civilization. There are four faculty along with visiting professors. All donate their time to the school and students, with the intention that financial matters should not be a barrier to educating new spiritual leaders. Amazing!

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Every atom in your body…

Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements – the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution and for life – weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way for them to get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. ~ Lawrence M. Krauss

Hypnotizing circle dance by Sufi Zikr

Came across this on Facebook and found it on Youtube – absolutely hypnotic! Can’t stop watching. From the comments on Facebook:

Sufi dance Zikr in Chechnya
“What they are doing is a very typical Sufi Muslim thing called ‘dhikr’ which means remembrance or recitation. They use Quranic verses, poems or Islamic chants to remember and praise God and sending blessings to the Prophet. It is practised all over the Muslim world and extremely hypnotic. For a few moments you forget all pain and suffering in your life.”

Blundering through the sacred


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